The tablet of his heart

"Perhaps our greatest parenting challenge is figuring out how to write on the tablet of our son's heart. I mean just how is that going to happen? Will our words be enough? Will our lives measure up to our teaching? What if we sabotage our own efforts through sin and mistakes? And how will we know that the ink with which we write is permanent ink? Won't the world try to erase all we put in there?

I pray that i might mold the soft, pliable, spirit of my son's and engrave their soul with the markings of kindness and love. My prevailing ambition is to teach them about goodness and have them embrace it as their own, to show them loyalty and watch them become loyal, to give them grace and watch as they , in turn, gives it to others, and to introduce them to my Savior and have them choose Jesus for themselves.

I'm not sure how this transfer will happen. I must claim the truth of Proverbs 3 for my life- I cannot lean on my own understanding. Instead, I will trust in You. In every decision I make, I will seek You. I believe You will write on the tables of our children' hearts, even those things that we, in our humanness, are not able to impart.

Sometimes, the enormity of our task scares me. Our precious children. A mold able character . Therefore, we entrust this most valuable treasure into Your hands. By your wisdom and from your leading, they will know righteousness all the days of their lives. In Jesus name I pray,Amen."

Let love and faithfulness never leave you, bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart. Then you will win favor and a good name int he sight of God and man. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:3-6

-Prayers for my baby boy

From Scratch

"A cake is simultaneously refined and down-home, and by its very construction, it towers above all the other desserts. It's no wonder why we put them on pedestals. And it's why cakes- more than cookies, more than pies, more than puddings or cobblers- are the ultimate expression of love and celebration. Cakes mark special occasions. Birthdays, anniversaries, weddings, grand events. My grandmother made a cake nearly every Saturday. For her, all of life was a special occasion. The process, for anyone who cares to take it on, is still the same. Slow. Deliberate. But the result is always a masterpiece."

One summer between my college years I found myself working 2 jobs and baking cakes. I am not sure how I began to sell the cakes I was baking, but by the end of that summer I had made approximately 50 cakes. 3 kinds to choose from...cream cheese poundcake, lemon poundcake, chocolate poundcake. My dad said I was going to have to buy them a new oven with my money I was making because I was going to wear it out and mom was a little worried about her kitchen aid mixer:) But like all supportive parents they encouraged me all the way as I baked into the late hours of the night after I would get home from work. I learned so much that summer in the kitchen. It became my new classroom. Those poundcakes sparked a desire in me to have a bakery / coffee shop one day. My mom and I would dream about how I could decorate it...coffee mugs from various places. I remember going to one of the pottery shops that summer and looking at the coffee cups and thinking about which ones I would like to have in my shop. Just a few months ago I found a box that had been stored away at my parents filled with bundt pans, a sifter, and a card that said...my poundcake baker. All these items my mom had purchased at antique shops that summer and had given them to me for to use in my bakery one day. Well that has been about 10 years ago now and I have made some poundcakes since then...for birthdays and just everyday celebrations,but I haven't pursued the dream of my bakery. Who knows if I ever will? But it seems that everyone else that I read about started out small with just a desire, an idea, a dream, and then when they least expected it, it became a reality. So I might just have to do a little baking soon. Just to see if I still have it in me!

Feeling So Thankful...

It has been a while since I have posted anything and when I look back at the date of my last post I realize I became pregnant soon after that and I guess I just forgot about my ambitions to blog!!! who knows?!?! Oh well, I am back and hope to do a better job of keeping up with memories, thoughts, and journaling about my life with my boys.

Just feeling thankful tonight for these things...

My wonderful husband who loves me so much and works hard at work and at h0me. I am his biggest fan!! So thankful he is on my team!

My sweet Finley...he is growing up so fast and just amazes me at the things he knows and what he is learning.

My precious Cohen...6 months old already...his smile lights up the room!

My parents...who show up at my house with lunch on Sunday and say we will watch the boys, you go take a nap because you have been up all night with a teething baby. Wow! a wonderful surprise!

A crock pot...dinner is ready when I come home from work!
God's great power to heal broken hearts and "restore the years that locust have eaten."

a nephew that is on the way! I can't wait to be Aunt Nena:)

Friends..to share on this journey of life!

"every good and perfect gift is from above." What are you grateful for today?